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Chemistry can be developed

But once you stop believing

Everything will perish

Student

• A student comes to my room with face covered with sadness. She needs help.
• A few weeks back something happened that really changed her course of life. Since the incident, she felt demotivated,stress and lonely.
• Now, she is living an empty life. Everything is not going accordingly and she feels as if the world has turn its back on her. You know, that sucky and shitty feelings. Such a sad and sorry girl.
• She wants to quit college. The reason is that she cannot focus on study anymore and her motivation is nowhere to be seen.
• As I look at her, my mind is on rewind mode which takes me to my early days. When Limp Bizkit and baseball cap were the in things. She reminds me of the young Izzat.
• I know, I need to do something to help her out. She is stressful and confuse. She really could use some guidance especially from an adult.
• I open my mouth and said, "Awak pernah tak makan sambal belacan sambil minum air teh panas di warung yang panas terik?"
• She answered " Pernah."
• "Cemana rasa benda tu?Awak suka tak rasa benda tu?" I continue.
• "Sakit sir. Pedih mulut. Muka pun peluh2. Saya tak suka. Tak tahan rasanyaKalo boleh tak nak".
• "Macam tu la mak ayah awak rasa kalau awak berhenti belajar".
• The girl just sit down and starts to cry.

Sepak bola

• Bila jiwa kacau,semua cakap aq tak kisah.
• Makan tak sedap, kawan2 tak kelakar.
• Kerja tak penat, belajar tak masuk.
• Begitu juga dgn perasaan.Rasa melayang atas awan.Macam dah takde bumi nak pijak.
• Hanya satu je buat aq gembira bila rasa celaka, bola.
• Kalo Man Utd n Selangor kalah minggu ni memang jahanam perasaan.

Perasaan

Perasaan sekaranag ialah sangat celaka!

sekian

Penghujung rindu

Aq suka dengar lagu Penghujung rindu ole Jamal ABdillah. Aq bagi abok dengar. Dia kata lagu ni pasal awek ni nak balik kat balak dia. Aq tersentak.Yeke? Mati2 aq ingatkan pasal awek tu mati pastu balak dia nyanyi lagu bukan2. Haih~ tak seni betul jiwa aq.

Kita bertemu di penghujung rindu....aq rindukan kamu~dengar tak?~ haih~

Mardy Bum

Gua rasa hip kalo dengar lagu2 macam ni.Terasa semangat keremajaan terserlah. Bunkface abes rasa di jiwa!!

Mardy Bum

Well now then Mardy Bum
I've seen your frown
And it's like looking down the barrel of a gun
And it goes off
And out come all these words
Oh there's a very pleasant side to you
A side I much prefer
It's one that laughs and jokes around
Remember cuddles in the kitchen
Yeah, to get things off the ground
And it was up, up and away
Oh, but it's right hard to remember
That on a day like today when you're all argumentative
And you've got the face on

Well now then Mardy Bum
Oh I'm in trouble again, aren't I
I thought as much
Cause you turned over there
Pulling that silent disappointment face
The one that I can't bear

Why can't we just laugh and joke around
Remember cuddles in the kitchen
Yeah, to get things off the ground
And it was up, up and away
Oh, but it's right hard to remember
That on a day like today when you're all argumentative
And you've got the face on

And yeah I'm sorry I was late
but I missed the train
And then the traffic was a state
And I can't be arsed to carry on in this debate
That reoccurs, oh when you say I don't care
but of course I do, yet I clearly do!

Billy

• Ive been using the name Billie Izzy(or sometimes Billy) for quite sometime now. As far as I can remember, I 'create' that name back in high school.
• The name Billie is derived from my guitar hero, Billie Joe Armstrong. As the frontman of Greenday, he is one of my childhood hero. Full with punk attitude, charismatic and crazy,. I love him from head to toe!!
• Izzy is basically the funky version of my name, Izzat. I got the name by imitating the nick name of Deryck Whibley (SUm 41) which is Bizzy D. Back than I think its kinda cool to have funky name like that. So when two ofmu guitar heroes combined together I got my pseudo name, Billie Izzy. Cool huh??

P/s Before billie izzy i got other pseudo names such as Solidsnake and Ot@con. ;P

Local

• Lately,Im getting sick of listening to music from othr country, specially from the States and UK. After many years of listening to them, I tend to think that their music is kinda boring. Year after year after year, the same formula is being used. It is as if you are doing the same thing repeatedly.
• I need something new and fresh. So I opted to local music. Went through youtube, myspace and some websites to find something new. At last I found few things that satisfy my hunger for music.
• Some new songs from our own soil really make me feel alive again. Thank you boys for creating such songs that really makes my day. Goodbye Fly.fm, hello Xfm!! ;D

Something

• "Hari minggu itu hari, aq jumpa Hanis Zalika", ujar Abok dengan nada gembira. Sambil2 usya hp gua rply sama Abok "Yeke? hebat la ko.jumpa blogger terkenal. Ada kirim salam tak?"
• "Tak sempat la.Dia tinggi.Aq rendah", balas Abok. Seketika aq terpikir,yeke dia tu tinggi sangat? Aq tak berapa gemar awek tinggi2 ni. Seriau aq dibuatnya. Merendahkan motivasi aq. Maka aq buat kesimpulan bahawa aq dan Hanis Zalika tak mungkin bersama.
• "Dunia....", jawab aq sambil tenung tajam ke arah handphone E75 aq.

Frinjan

Semalam, aq pegi Frinjan. Bertempat di Dataran Shah Alam. Baru first time datang bertandang walau dahtau berabad lamanya. Mereka semua ebat2. ada yang berkarya, ada yang berjuang ada juga mereka yang berniaga. Aq tabik semua. Di kesempatan melawat Frinjan aq belajar sesuatu. Berkaryalah dengan bebas. Janagn perangkap diri dengan undang2 tak bertulis yang menyesakkan jiwa. Maka secara terus, aq terinspirasi untuk berkarya. Dengarlah karya bebas tanpa sempadan ini.

Ayat- ayat 1

Bila dunia berpaksi pada nya,

Semua indah belaka,

Hitam dipelangikan,

Busuk di wangikan

Bila dia tinggalkan kau,

hati merana,

Celaka celaka celaka

Kawan - kawan berkata

Padan muka!

Ayat - ayat 2

Cuba lihat dinegara barat,

mereka bebas merdeka,

Berbuat sesuka mereka,

Melakukannya disini sana.

Cuba lihat dinegara kita,

apa bezanya?

Mereka semua seakan sama

Jalan singkat ke neraka

Ayat - ayat 3

Bila aku tertawa, biarkan

Jika aku menangi, biarkan

Sedang aku termnung,biarkan

Ini kerana kesunyian ini suatu rahmat,

dalam hiruk pikuk kota ku jumpa syurga

Walau tidak sempurna tidak mengapa

Kerana itu impian ku.

Biarkan aku.

Nanti ada ayat2 lain aq tulis lagi!

Brother love

• There is this show called brother love on Xfm. The show is on air every weekdays morning.
• Its a simple show where a 'mysterious' man named Brother love will help those who are in need, regarding love of course.
• Today, I heard another show of Brother love. This time around our so-called "DOkter Cinta" helped a guy to tell her GF that he misses her very much. Nothing special but the show untill the guy utter this words to his GF
• "Aku sayang kau sangat2. Aku akan cuba jaga kau sebaik mungkin. Walaupun dalam kehidupan ini, aku mungkin tak dapat memiliki dirimu, aku berjanji dalam kehidupan kedua nanti aku akan tetap berusaha untuk menjadikan kau milik aku."
• I was left speechless......

Simple tought

I saw a couple on a motorcycle this morning

I say to my self " Ahh...it is overrated!!"

Nihongo

Anata no koto wo kangaeteiru

Neeruza Ozawa

Modread (Neeruza Ozawa)

Berdetak Detik arah perjalanan Ini pun terhentak Oleh penawanan perasaan Yang menghilang Mampu membawa rasa Yang telah pun tenggelam Kepada dia yang tidak pernah ada Kasih tiada daya Menutup mataku Walau aku tahu oh hatimu Kerana dirimu masih Melangkah tidak berpaling Dan kau tinggalkan aku Oh pergilah Satu hidup bahagia Yang telah pun tertewas Dengan satu kesalahan Yang mungkin di maaf Perasaan ini seperti Telah pun mati Hanya jasad aku berdiri sendiri Dia yang telah tiada Hilang di mataku Walau aku tahu oh hatimu Cukuplah sekadar satu Senyuman yang mampu Memanjangkan nafasku Kasih tiada daya Menutup mataku Walau aku tahu oh hatimu Kerana dirimu masih Melangkah tidak berpaling Dan kau tinggalkan aku Dia yang telah tiada Hilang di mataku Walau aku tahu oh hatimu Cukuplah sekadar satu Senyuman yang mampu Memanjangkan nafasku

Credit to Modread

Nicely written song. Sangat terkesan di hati dan sanubari. Muzik metal, lirik jiwa2.

Little words

• Dont waste your time looking for something to be sad about. 24 hours aint just enough for that crappy stuff.
• If you just broke up with your GF, fine. Cry a river. After a while, get up and move on with your life. Dont ask yourself questions that you yourself dont have the answer. Why she did this to me? Am I not good enough for her? Is she with someone else right now? To hell with the questions man!!
• Do not go around in your stupid emotional circle that will trap you forever. Break the circle.Move foward. Walking in circle wont get you anywhere.
• All Im saying is try to be positive. Dont have expectation. I mean ridiculous expectation. Know your capacity. Dont hope too much because with hope comes frustration. When you feel frustrate you wont be able to think rationally. Then you will become an emotional idiot. (Vijay 2010)
• Everyday,try to find things that make you happy. Enjoy every little thing. If your friend bought you a cup of coffee, enjoy it. Make it as a reason fr you to smile and feel happy for the rest of the that. No matter how small the it is,it is still a pleasant surprise.
• As a conclusion, dont go and waste your time to find something that would make you feel to commit suicide. Be positive. I know its hard but at least try.
• Thank you.

Girl

Dear girl,

If you are reading this. Thank you for the conversation. A worth while conversation.

Japanese

• Once I fell for a Japanese look-alike girl. She has the look of beautiful Nihon actress. Fair complexion. Small pointy eyes. Nice bobcut hair. Almost perfect,for me. ;D
• She was preparing for her A-level at that time. A brilliant girl. No doubt about it.
• Im so into her that Im turning Japanese without me realizing it. everything I did, I did it in a Japanese way. Crazy stuff man!!
• When its time for her to go abroad, I felt sad. I wanted to tell her about my feelings but I just dont have the guts. Everytime she stood in front of me, I will lost my speaking ability. All I did was looking at her Japanese face and listened to her Japanese (maybe) story.
• Every night I will be dreaming bout us being together. I imagined that before she leave, we will have a picture together at KLIA. I will put the picture on a table besides my bed or maybe beside my computer. Haha!
• The time came, she flew to US and left me without knowing my feelings towards her. I managed to say goodbye but still didnt have the courage to tell the truth.
• Since she left, I began to lose my Japaneseness slowly. Now not even a cell in my body is Japanese anymore. Im a real Malay, just like the time when I was born. Back to basic.
• The morale of the story is, even in Malaysia you can find a Japanese girl.
• Thank you.